Between Silence and Hope

By a guy who is learning how to sit with the quiet, trust the waiting, and believe that joy will find its way back home.

I know, I’ve been quiet. The stories have been sitting there, untouched, like cups of coffee gone cold on the table. I wanted to write, truly I did, but my mind and my soul have been drifting—slowly, quietly—somewhere between sorrow and wonder. Since my mum passed, I’ve found myself reading late into the night about what comes after this life, holding fast to the Christian faith that has always been my anchor. And in all that reading, in all those quiet moments, I found something gentle and surprising: hope. Not the loud kind, not the kind that demands answers, but the kind that whispers, it’s going to be alright. Everything I’ve come to understand so far feels like good news, and for that, my gratitude to God and to Jesus Christ has grown deeper, steadier, more personal.

I’m healing. Not in leaps, not dramatically—but steadily, like a wound that closes when no one is watching. One day, I hope soon, I’ll find my way back to happy stories again. Stories that smile. Stories that breathe. For now, I sit with where I am, and I let the days do their quiet work.

To those who took the time to write me personal notes, to send prayers and kind thoughts—please know this: they mattered more than you’ll ever know. There were moments when I teared up, not from sadness, but from the simple, overwhelming knowledge that I wasn’t alone. That I was held, in ways seen and unseen. With all my heart, thank you. I’m grateful beyond words, and I’m looking ahead now—slowly, gently—toward the next chapter.


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60 responses to “Between Silence and Hope”

  1. Maggie Avatar

    It’s good to see you back 💜 But I’m also glad you have taken your time to heal, cry and rage about this big shock .
    Sending you hugs 🫂

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thanks Maggie!

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    Anonymous

    Take all the time you need, grief is different for everyone. We will still be here x

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  3. bredemarket Avatar

    Write when you can.

    Don’t when you can’t.

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  4. Priscilla Avatar

    Having recently come out of a dry spell when I also stopped writing, I loved this post! The tap will open for you too I’m sure and I look forward to reading your posts

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thanks Priscilla!

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you Lynette.

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  5. atimetoshare.me Avatar
    atimetoshare.me

    Glad to have you back. Grief is different for everyone. I lost my husband of 60 years, one year ago and have experienced ups and downs along the way. The one thing that has given me great hope and strength is knowing that my husband is in heaven with his Savior. He was very ill for several years before he passed, so it was expected. We had many conversations about heaven. We shared our love for the Bible by reading passages to lift us up. We took mini-road trips to keep our minds on the future. When he died, all of those memories remained and gave me hope. I will continue to grieve until I join him in paradise, but in the meantime I have a great collection of memories to keep me going. Keep on trusting in God’s promises.

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you so much.

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    Anonymous

    I understand this more than I can put into words. My mother passed away a couple of years ago, and even now the pain still finds me in those quiet moments of reflection. There are so many times I wish I could share my life and my family’s accomplishments with her. That longing never really goes away.

    Your words reminded me that grief does not run on a timetable. It simply becomes part of how love continues. Scripture says, “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted” (Psalm 34:18), and your writing reflects that closeness. Not loud. Not rushed. Just present.

    Thank you for sharing honestly and without trying to dress it up. It helped me feel a little less alone in my own quiet moments. I believe the joy you are trusting will return, and I believe our loved ones are not as far from us as they sometimes feel. “Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted” (Matthew 5:4).

    Wishing you continued peace and gentle healing as you move forward.

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you so much for your kind words. They comfort me.

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  7. Carla Maria Baptista Avatar

    Grief is its own world, and it asks us to move through it in our own time. Some days, it arrives quietly; other days, it takes us by surprise and asks us to stop, to breathe, to cry. Let it. Love doesn’t disappear—it changes shape. And little by little, you learn how to carry it with you, not without pain, but with tenderness, strength, and hope.

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you Carla.

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  8. Melanie Drews Avatar
    Melanie Drews

    Sorry of your loss but was thinking just this morning on the hope we have in God for similar reasons. It’s amazing how God put your post as literally the 1st post as I went to read a bit after that. Thank you for sharing & looking forward to reading more of your work.

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you Melanie.

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  9. trE Avatar

    Take your time, appreciate the silence and let it comfort you. Grief is not linear. Healing is not on anyone’s timeline.

    “I’m healing. Not in leaps, not dramatically—but steadily, like a wound that closes when no one is watching. One day, I hope soon, I’ll find my way back to happy stories again. Stories that smile. Stories that breathe. For now, I sit with where I am, and I let the days do their quiet work.”

    Be good to yourself. 🙏🏾🩵

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you trE.

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      1. trE Avatar

        You’re most welcome.

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  11. denvrital Avatar

    A little something I learned from the movie Toy Story…

    you’ve got a friend in me!

    Lenny

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you Lenny

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    Anonymous

    So deeply sorry for your loss. Such a precious, eternal bond between mother and son; I know this from a different perspective having become a mother over a decade ago. I am a spiritual person and know your mother is in a beautiful, loving spirit world. Healing, grief, and hope are cyclical, so be patient with the process. While the loss will remain, hopefully it will occupy a softer space where your two souls will always coexist.🕉️

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  13. joannerambling Avatar

    Healing takes time, it took me over four years to start to recover from lossing my parents and there are still some rough days

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you Joanne.

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  14. Steph Tyler Avatar

    I believe that there are things we carry with us wherever we go. Sorrow is one thing. It’s weighty and feels like drowning. But this week I was reading and reminded of something. For those who believe we carry Gods presence with us wherever we go. We carry His peace. And we carry that hope you mentioned. The hope of heaven. The hope that this wasn’t the end of the story but the beginning of a new one. The hope that we will see those who’ve gone before us again. And the waves of sorrow still come at times – some stronger than others. But, I find that hope of heaven and the peace of God carries me through.
    praying for your family!

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you Steph. I have so much faith in that hope.

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  15. JeanMarie Avatar

    It’s good to see you writing. Time and pen (or keyboard) will heal the open wound.

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you Jeane.

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  16. gc1963 Avatar

    Please take care. Bereavement is irreplaceable but time heals. Spirituality is a great strength and has enormous healing capacity.

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you so much.

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  17. Jessica Moore Wilson Avatar

    Thanks for sharing this. Grief is a long road that we all walk along with you. Something my sister-in-law said that has stuck with me – no one can take this away for you. You have to go through it yourself.

    And even if our experiences are all different, it has helped me to know that while I walk this path, I am not alone.

    Thinking of you, and glad that you are allowing yourself to heal in your own way and on your own timeline.

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you Jessica.

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  18. ibarynt Avatar

    Maybe you can try reading A Grief Observed by CS Lewis and Grieve, Breathe, Receive by Ps. Steve Ryan Carter. I still have to read them myself.

    Death changes us internally. This time is just for you to mourn and honor her life, there is no timeline for grief. But, hope springs eternal.

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you so much. It still hurts a lot. We talked almost everyday and my whole being misses that.

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  19. lisaapaul Avatar

    I am so happy to read that you have found a quiet hope as a result of your faith. I know I have times when I go quiet. And those stories are just in the back of my mind. Not itching to come forward. There isn’t much we can do but let them ferment back there. I guess. I am looking forward to reading more of your wonderful posts in the future ❤️🙏

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you so much Lisa.

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      1. yusefasabiyah Avatar

        This is worthy of thanks.

        “And those stories are just in the back of my mind. Not itching to come forward. There isn’t much we can do but let them ferment back there. I guess.”

        By the time she died, I hated my mom. The day she died was a happy day for me. Both because it ended her suffering, and it ended mine.

        Could I tell stories about her? How she inspired me? I thought it was really great when we went out into the yard (we had a yard) during a snow fall, and I was delighted to have it pointed out I left tracks. I had no idea, and I broke down, laughing delightedly.

        Having given me life and delight, my mother went back to her real concerns, while I, staring at my tracks in the snow, and the white flakes coming down, thought it appropriate I might show my mom up by living as an eskimo, and never needing her again,

        Except for delight.

        Or ferment, or razzle, or dazzle, snow song.

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  20. Joni Avatar

    I know I mentioned the book After to you by Bruce Greyson, but did I mention I had read the new Dan Brown book – the Secret of Secrets? It deals with the afterlife, and you might find it comforting to read.

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    1. Joni Avatar

      PS. I lost my mom in 2024 and found it very difficult, as we were close, but I do sense her presence occasionally.

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      1. AKings Avatar

        I feel that I sense her too. Last Monday when I woke up, in that moment between awake and asleep, I really felt that someone is in the house with me and she was the first thing that came up on my mind. There is only me and my dog Georgie in the house. I was so happy that she came to visit….

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      2. Joni Avatar

        That reminds me of the lyrics to the Beatles “Let It Be” where Paul McCartneys mother came to him in a dream. I try and remember the let it be part when I don’t know what to do about something.

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      3. AKings Avatar

        One of my favorite songs. Also strawberry fields forever.

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    2. AKings Avatar

      I’ll get those books now. Thank you!

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      1. Joni Avatar

        I found them both comforting reads.

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      2. Joni Avatar

        Let me know what you think after you have read them.

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      3. AKings Avatar

        I surely will!

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  21. Faith that Flows Avatar

    Love your writing and I will pray for you 😇

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you so much.

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    Anonymous

    good to see you back 🙂

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  23. arlene Avatar

    Grieving and healing take time. Hope is not lost. We see it glimmers every day. 😘

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Thank you Arlene.

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  24. Candice Holt Avatar

    Sorry for your loss. Grief is hard and there is no time limit on how long it takes for our hearts to be healed. I unfortunately know the pain of loss, when my son passed away it took along time to realize I should’ve just gave it all to God sooner & he wouldve healed my heart faster but being human I didnt and had to try to cope with it my ways which of course didn’t work and made it worse on me and the rest of my family. Some people might not believe that our loved ones are still around when they pass but I have experienced first hand feeling my son,mom and my brother still in my house & other people have witnessed feeling them there as well. So much so that i warned whoever that came over and was going to stay for a few days to not be freaked out over them hearing a childs laugh or see a shadows or hear footsteps because my son & brother loved to play tricks and be silly. I could go on with more. So know that your mom is still there with you no matter where you are and God says he will never leave us! Hope this helps a little.

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    1. AKings Avatar

      Hi Candice,
      Thank you much for your kind words and your story. I completely agree with you. There are times that she visits me in my dream, and times that I can also feel her presence.

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  25. RMW Avatar

    I believe that sometimes the break we take heals more than we think. Its ok to take those breaks and muddle up your words in your mind till you are ready to let them out again. Keep the faith your braver than you think, Welcome back 🙏

    thank you for looking at my blog as well 😊

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